A New Start

The wages of sin is death. I’ve tried to hide behind a cloak of righteousness, one that I thought would bring a resolution to the guilt and shame I’ve covered through sin. It is like Adam and Eve in the garden trying to cover themselves up after their probation period ended.  Through a recent confession in the small group ministry at church, I have confessed some pretty serious sins. It has been hard to do because I’m so used to lying about who I really am, and have caused incalculable damage first and foremost to God and then as a consequence to others as well. I praise God for His mercies in Christ and the letter to the Ehpesians. I am grateful for who I am in Christ and what He did for me on the cross. I pray that I continue to hate my sin and flee to Christ and His righteousness. Part of my disciple included a withdrawal from seminary at WSC. This has been tough at first, but I realized now that I’d been trying to use the pursuit of a call to hide behind my sin. What a hypocrite I am, but O how I have seen the promises of God renewed in my heart and mind.

I thank God for His providential work and how he has used this experience to point me to the cross and to the sacraments. I also thank him for the preached Word and The Lord’s Supper. I also realize how sin affects focus and clarity of thought. I am not that gifted of a writer nor have I evidenced any improvement in the last two semesters at WSC. I was trying to serve two masters, and I loved one and hated the other. I’m not sure where I’ll go from here, but I do know that I have the forgiveness of sins through Christ and His sacrifice on the cross–to take the wrath I deserved on my behalf. Anyone who is in Christ is a new creation. Soli DEo Gloria